I have to admit I've been struggling lately with what I want our life to be now and fearing that it will never be and then life will be passed and the kids will be grown and that's as far as my thoughts usually go. I know our children are not and should not be my life. They are precious gifts from the Lord whom He has entrusted to our care, to train up in the ways they should go...that we might let them go on to the purpose He has called them to, praying we've done the best we can and knowing His grace is there to cover our mistakes. So saying this, maybe this is the realization that maybe I am thinking like this.
But I digress, so my struggles...discontentment and fear. Both not true or honoring to our Father. But I can't emphasize enough to you the grace that has poured out from my precious Heavenly Father. Despite my heart attitude, He has heard my cries, my pleas to fix this broken and sinful heart of mine. He has been faithful to show me quickly how He hears me and cares for the little things as much as the big things. I prayed, I cried for joy...and He filled me.
I can only turn to His Word...His love to us.
I have prayed He would allow me to know Him better, to be the woman He has called me to be, to know who I am in Him.
He is faithful, I know this, I cling to this, looking forward with faith that He is in control and knows SO MUCH better than I do what is best for all of us-not just me. How precious He is, with mercy and grace and all in love.
Deuteronomy 28:11 (New International Version)
I sit in the cart continually handing over the reigns but holding onto the ends out of fear we might never go down "that" path. He stops the cart, sits and listens, and waits, patiently reaffirming that the cart might end up on that path...and it might not. But no matter which way He leads it, if I let Him...and trust Him He will take me on the BEST path. He gently puts his hand out and waits for the reigns of this cart that sit in my hand. I give them, asking for His help to let go, His peace surrounding, His voice to my heart.
Deuteronomy 5:33 (New International Version)
And He will lead...and I pray to sit and look out past the cart and see the beauty of the path He drives, looking beyond the reigns, taking the blinders off, the fears, the worries subsiding,
...trusting, hoping...in faith...
A song of ascents.
A song of ascents.
where does my help come from? 2 My help comes from the LORD,
the Maker of heaven and earth.
Bless you dear friends,